Okay, so in an extra effort to (re)evaluate my life and the semi-perminant mess that it is, I’m reading this book titled You are a Badass by Jen Sincero. It’s a book about how to stop doubting your greatness and start living an awesome life. So, I thought why nit blig about reading this book and blog the exercises so that I can hold something accountable and get an experience through reading this book.
“Take a minute to look at some of the less-than-impressive areas of your life and think about the underlying beliefs that could have created them…practice stepping aside, notice what’s happening in the dysfunctional areas of your life and stregthen your almighty awareness muscle…”
Losing weight: Well…I’ve always been fat, so what’s the point of losing weight? It’s hard and I don’t want to fight the fight. What’s the point of doing so much hard work only to lose 1 pound? Plus, I like the rewards system.
Social: Intimidating people scare the living hell out of me…but…all people scare me at first. I don’t like trusting people because I know they’ll burn me one way or another. And plus, with some past history regarding being social with others…how does one social??? I’m still struggling with how that works in the long run. And lastly, I hate the feelings I get when I ask somebody else for help. I always feel like I’m being greedy/self centered and show so much damn weakness in doing that simple task. I’m too damn scared of being bold for fear of ridicule and bullying (which is something I’ve already been through).
Doing stuff: If I try something, I’ll always fail. If I do something under my own power, I’m always doing it wrong. Plus, my initiative has never gotten going because I like the feeling of not doing anything productive. It’s a feeling I’ve always had inside of me.
So first off, I just want to get this out there…for those people that follow my ramblings and randomness posted periodically on this site…thank you! I now have a following of about 25. This makes me extremely happy. 😀
But more importantly, I had mentioned on a previous post that I would talk about the fact that I’ve been rediscovering music from a long time ago (not in a galaxy far away).
More or less, I recently rediscovered my love for the Backstreet Boys and had a period of time where I listened to their album Millennium. And boy of boy, it was a major episode of #holythrowback.
I also was able to get my hands on a Nelly Furtado album that I had once upon a time (by buying it on Amazon)…and boy of boy, that was also a major episode of #holythrowback.
But getting back the the Backstreet Boys…I learned new facts about them.
- They never broke up (unlike NSYNC, One Direction?, etc.)
- They going to headline in Las Vegas
- They have social media and I’m following their Instagram page
- They have awesome new music.
Yes, they have new music that a lot of the world might not have heard yet. It is awesome music and I’ve had it repeating occasionally while driving around. So without further ado…
Soo….I’ve had a lot of free time on my hands lately.
I been able to do reading for getting adult life back on track, I’ve pretty much completed a 1,000 piece puzzle, I’m focusing on a clean-eating 2 week program again (yippee!) and I’ve been going to the gym 5-6 days a week. Sounds good, right?
Well…I’m not even sure if I like having all of this free time now.
In the past, I loved having free time…all to myself…doing what I want to do. But now, I feel guilty for having all of this free time. Am I to blame for this? Probably…but I’ve been praying for things to change really soon and I’ve been feeling really encouraged going out and facing my always fear of phone calls in hopes of getting my life back on track.
Okay, rant over…
Another application just went out the door. My mood has significantly changed for today. The downpour that is happening outside as I type has not…
..and despite how political anything goes in the States of United, this is too funny to not share…