…I used to roleplay. Not the L.A. kind of roleplaying that makes up LARPing but the wordy kind of roleplay that let me create characters and stories right off the top of my head.
And when I used to roleplay, I actually liked it. And because I liked it, I actually started getting better at English. 0_0
But now, since (insert number here) years have passed since I have actively roleplayed anything, my almost-seemingly natural talent of creating characters and stories right off the top of my head have vanished. I’ve been wanting to get this talent back for quite some time now, but there are ultimately 2 problems that stand in the way of this.
One of those problems is my insistent “motivation” problem that has seemingly plagued me more and more the further I’ve gotten into schooling. Basically, I’m just typical-colleging almost everything in my life right now (which I need to turn around pronto….stat…..ASAP…..)
The other problem with this is that I’m just flat out scared to start putting my blurbs and writings out there for the world to see. I’m not grammar-nazi person, my writings look absolutely nothing like that of an actual author, and I’ve always struggled and sucked at English. I feel like I’m gonna get some comments that simply say “THIS SUCKS MAJOR BALLS” and stuff…..
So, what I’m going to do is this. Should I just take a leap of faith and start putting some of my stuff up on here?
After a morning filled with shopping (for 2 pretty sweet new pairs of shoes for myself), my mother and I went to the theaters to see The Hobbit: Battle of the Five Armies. I have to admit that I liked the aspect of this movie tying up loose and looser ends to the Lord of Rings movies. Peter Jackson et al. went out of their ways to make this light-heart book into something extremely dark (and made so-called “purists” like my father very angry).
But when seeing this movie, there was one thing that I noticed that made me make a strange comparison. With my newly growing obsession with the Selena Gomez song (about the Biebz) “The Heart Wants What it Wants”, I couldn’t help but apply this song to the subplot of Kili and Tauriel……
…I mean, am I right, or am I right? As I’m looking at the lyrics to the song, I’m making comparisons that actually make a lot of sense (in my world) such as
I know I’m acting a bit crazy Strung out, a little bit hazy
The future that we hold is so unclear
There’s a million reasons why I should give you up But the heart wants what it wants
Finding a way to let go Baby, baby, no, I can’t escape
Happy and/or Merry Christmas Eve (/or impending Christmas day) everyone!
Currently where I live, it is humid, raining, and supposed to get into the 70’s with chances of thunderstorms in the night…..But any-who, here is another song that I’ve grown to like (and despise just a little) at the same time. Enjoy! ❤
Ehh, just to make things a little more interesting for me…
…but more importantly, to try and impart the knowledge that there is funky music out there (because what mainstream US has fallen into has gotten a bit annoying), I’ll just post a picture [from Google] of a song that I’ve always liked, and then whoever reads this can go venture into Youtube, take a listen, and then possibly go on a Youtube binge while possibly learning one new piece of information today.
So, without further ado, the first ever song of the day issssss *drumrolls*
I literally just made a quick run to the bank to take care of some rent business, and listened to about half of Ariana’s song “Love Me Harder”. Even though I can’t really stand her or most of her songs, this one seems is about the only one that I’ve fallen in love with. It’s suuuuper catchy, and it seems to be on the simpler side of the EDM-song spectrum. But, as I pulled into the driveway of my house, a thought dawned on me. This sounds kind of similar to Lady Gaga’s song “Do what u want”.
And now that I’m thinking about this thought even more (as I’m typing this blurb), I’m right. The straight beats of the bass drum(?) and cymbal(?) do match up in some places. And also, both songs kind of have that 80’s-ish/-esque feel to them. And lastly, both songs feature a male part as well as a final chorus in which they have to vocally show off (in some way)…
Gosh……I love sudden realizations like this and the ideas that come afterwards…..
Sooo…..since I’ll be starting my last semester of college come January, more and more of those “once you graduate……” and “welcome to real life” talks have been figuratively shoved down my neck by my parents…I literally just got one at 11pm…
They’ve been telling me the same things over and over again, like “Use the carreerr center!!!” “Start looking for a job right now (nownownownownownow[xinfinity])” since the start of last year honestly, and I’ve honestly just been paying half-attention to their pleas only because I knew then that the time was still far away. Now that’s it’s practically breathing down my neck, I feel the sudden urge just to not do anything, but I know now that this plan of attack will end with my whole family disowning me and my apparent ‘fat and lazy ass’.
So now, over my winter break, will be the time for me to gulp multiple times, grow man-balls and just suck up and muster through the fact that I need to become a 89% responsible adult….that is, if I have this ‘persistence’ trait somewhere in the my DNA.
As I ramble on and get thoughts (on thoughts on thoughts) out, something else comes to mind. Someone in my seemingly incredible memory bank comes the statement of “wanting instant gratification”when my(?) generation sets out on a task. I’ll probably realize over the next three weeks I get to spend at my home house that this “wanting instant gratification” thing is the very thing that has gotten me where I am today…
Okay, so before a maelstrom goes off, yes, I don’t have a “rags” type of a story…and yes, I now know that with this comes the fact that children will feel like they are “entitled” to things that are more than likely taken for granted by others. But since I feel like I know this, I need to get off of this train of thought early enough so that I don’t become a basic bitch and feel entitled to expensive stuff and Starbucks (and FYI, I just very much hate the “basic bitch” and everything about this sub-group of humans…)
So…to all of the people that will read this…..can you help a sista out? How do you stay motivated on a goal for a lengthy period of time? How would you motivate a person with a -10,000 motivation level? How did you deal with all of the stresses of newly post-graduate life? (And I’m not even going to start with student loans yet) How did you deal with persistently nagging parents on this issue?