Ode to 2017

To the year two thousand seventeen,

I don’t know what to think about you.

You’ve given me all the highs and the lows.

From getting a job to losing that job to getting more jobs.

From making me feel good about myself to making me feel miserable about myself to making me start to feel great and comfortable with myself for the first time in a long time.

You’ve been quite the roller-coaster.

You’ve been the year where I’ve finally started to address my past and my issues with that.

You’ve been the year where I realize that maybe I need to make life changes in order to do what I like.

You’ve been the year that has broke down my outer walls and exposed what has been building up inside me.

You’ve made me realize that the world that I had imagined myself living in will not work for me.

Twenty-seventeen, you made me see that I need to change in order to be myself and be happy and comfortable living my life.

Adios my friend,




Definition: when someone is very insecure about them selves and they feel threatened by others in the gym who are in good physical condition

Honestly, I have no freaking idea of why I even thought about this word or anything about this word.

But, I am also pretty sure that a lot of people experience or have experienced this before. It’s something that I have felt (and still do from time to time) whenever I go to the gym. But, over the years, I have found this fear to decrease in size because I’ve finally come to accept a few facts.

  1. Nobody is really judging me. And if they are, then…..whatever
  2. We’re all going for the same goal…..but we’re all at different places in the journey towards the goal
  3. Once you get in the habit of going….then others things about the gym will start falling into place

And because I’ve accepted these few facts, I don’t find going to the gym to be all that intimidating.

And something else that has helped me with ‘gymtimidation’ is going to classes. They take up the whole hour that I plan on going to and they tackle things such as cardio and weight training! DOUBLE YAY! At first I did feel intimidation going to classes because…I was new and nobody else there was. But, again…once I accepted the facts above, I’ve found a big love for gym classes. So, below are some the of the classes that I enjoy the most.


Believe it or not…this was the first gym class that I ever took. It’s the one that I started out with. It is very choreography-forward, but there are plenty of people that lack rhythm skills that still go to a class like this and love it! It does take a few classes to get the jist of zumba, but once you get it and get into the music, I’m sure you will fall in love with it!


It’s the most recent class that I have gotten into, but oh boy, does it take care of the weight-lifting part of going to the gym! This class is basically 10 songs that get you warmed up, work out all the major muscles of your body and then get you cooled down. They’ve got some pretty bangin’ music (that I’ve actually gotten onto itunes myself).


It’s basically high energy kickboxing set to some some more bangin’ music. Once you get the moves that are associated with this class, I’m sure everything will just be dandy. But this class really does rev up your cardio, because it incorporates a few HIIT rounds and then a TURBO round (which is all the HIIT rounds combined)….0_0

So, I really don’t know what prompted me to write about this at all, but I just wanted to share my experience of getting over a lot of my gymtimidation….I guess.


Taking Time for Myself

I’m finding myself in that hole again….where I just don’t have the inspiration to write…to do things I want to do…to take time for myself….

I’m still searching for another job to supplement my current little job, and I’m debating whether or not to do some more schooling, and….I feel like I just need to be productive all the time….but I also know that sometimes I just need to take a so-called ‘mental health day’.

And also….I just don’t have the inspiration to write stuff on my blog or post all that often….I don’t really know why….it just happens every now and then, when I just struggle to get words down on my screen.



Some Accomplishments of Late

So….I did about….3 things that I would have never done on my own initiative.

I went out.

I hung out with strangers.

And I had a great time.

I have never been the one that would always go out and hang out with people. I’m just not that type of person. On any given day, I would much rather stay home (in some comfy clothing if at all possible) and just hang out in the house doing stuff. For the longest time, the outside world and strangers have always been a scary thing for me. A place where people are judgmental and mean, and a place where I just felt anxious and like an outsider (if you didn’t know any people). But…..ever since I came across the website meetup.com it has pushed me to get wayy outside of my comfort zone. It gave me the incentive to go out and meet up with strangers. (and my ‘ah, what the hell!’ spirit actually made me go out to these groups and meet up with strangers).

But looking back on it now…I’m damn proud of myself for doing this. Nobody who is close to met would even think that I would actually do this, but here I am….3 meet-ups later and wanting to do more.