My current project

So…along with all of the other things that have been happening with me, I decided that I would tackle a project that I rarely do. Doing this really helps me focus and provide me with inspiration in completing and achieving something. 

Behold! A 1000 piece Pop Star Wars puzzle!


Out There Comparisons (2)

Alas…I have retrieved to the comforts of my room as the NFL playoffs are going on…

But here is segment number 2 of Out There Comparisons!

Sometimes, I just can’t help but think of songs and phrases of songs that go oh so well with ships.

Below are two more examples…

I hate you, I love you, I hate that I love you
Don’t want to, but I can’t put nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you, I hate that I want you…
gnash – i hate u, i love u (ft. Olivia O’Brien) (Deepend Remix)

…say you won’t let go…
James Arthur – Say You Won’t Let Go

Ah….I may know what’s wrong now…


So since that post…2 years have passed and one job have passed. Yes, I’ve graduated, got a job three months after…and that employment just ended/was just let go/separated/terminated/fired….youI¬†get the picture.

So for the past week or so, I’ve been doing some reflecting. Some good, deep, hard reflecting (*shiftyimmatureeyeroll*) and I’ve come to another realization.

I’ve never been a self proclaimed “go-getter”.

I’ve never really tried hard to advocate for ideas. I’ve never quite grasped how to take initiative for things that I think of. I’ve just been letting other people run me. I’ve been letting others influence how I act, make decisions, do things….and that may be a big reason for why I’m in the situation that I’m in now.

And as to how it got this way…well I’ve found that in my 24+ years of existence, many decisions that I’ve made under my own willpower end up being wrong/bad decisions. I literally spilled this self-revelation yesterday, was told that it wasn’t the case, made a decision and then ended up following the decision that person I spilled to made for me (if any of that makes sense). This feeling that I’ve identified has been like a broken record for as long as I can remember…it just keeps happening again and again and again.

So, the question I’m posing to myself is…how in the hell can I fix all of this? How can I finally change this broken record of making decisions for me (because decision I make are wrong) into making good decisions for myself under my own power? I guess I’m gonna have to figure this out one way or another…….


Just a thought…

It’s funny (to me) when you stumble across something old that you did however long ago. You look at something that you liked then and think to yourself “…huh…..I forgot that I liked that…”

It happened to me yesterday. 

I don’t know why I just thought of it now.